At a Loss for Words

I have come to realize that I suck at writing about my...well anything. 

I have so much going on up in my head that when I actually try to write about something, I can't. I get frustrated from all the different ideas and viewpoints and research that I just quit.  Instead of writing a neatly organized intellectual paper, or an artist statement for that matter, all I find myself able to do is write messy scribbles of random thoughts out on a piece of paper. I literally have about 10 pages of randomly organized messy notes pertaining to my art and why I do what I do.  But am I able to form all that into a simple 1 paged artist statement? Heck no.  Even with all those notes in front of me I still feel overwhelmed and under prepared.  I have done about 8 months of research and still feel like I MUST do more. I know that one can never do enough research, but I mean really.  I have a time limit here and need some desperate help.

I never thought it was possible to feel so out of control when you try to stay so overly organized.  It seems to me that I am SO organized and too prepared (research & studying wise) that my brain doesn't know what to do.  Allow me to have a conversation with someone about my photographs & I can talk for hours but the second I have to write it down all neat and well prepared I am done for.

Bleh.

Well here is some food for thought:

"Rushing into action, you fail.
Trying to grasp things, you lose them.
Forcing a project to completion,
you ruin what was almost ripe. 

Therefore the Master takes action
by letting things take their course.
He remains as calm
at the end as at the beginning.
He has nothing,
thus has nothing to lose.
What he desires is non-desire;
what he learns is to unlearn.
He simply reminds people
of who they have always been.
He cares about nothing but the Tao.
Thus he can care for all things."

- from the Tao Te Ching

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